Been a while

It's been a while since I last blogged and hubby reminded me of this last night. Things have been busy. I worked two jobs for a while but decided the stress level wasn't worth it, so I quit the weekend gig. I'm poorer now, but happier.

I've been busy with the full time job and with my new passion, embroidery. I made my step daughter a quilt for her birthday in August with fleece and embroidery and now I'm working on one for my SIL. I'm also working on all sorts of projects for people for Christmas. I'm a bit obsessed, but I love it. There is nothing better than settling down with Jeff at night to watch t.v. with a hoop in hand. It's so rewarding to see the finished project. It's such a small thing but it makes me happy. I'm also obsessed with embroidery and craft blogs now, but there are worse things in life.

On the baby front, well, so far, no baby. We went to see a fertility specialist and got all these tests, but we decided that we weren't really trying very hard before. We were just sort of leaving it up to chance. So now we're trying. And it's stressful and unromantic and, again, stressful. But we'll see what happens. If need be, we can certainly explore the options with the fertility doctor, but right now, we're taking matters into our own hands. I've been on blogs about it and talked to friends who have gone through and it after all that, I'm trying to keep a level head about it.

With the holidays coming, I can't afford to be stressed to the max about baby making, but it's hard. I'd love to have a child with Jeff. He's an amazing father now and he has such a generous heart. And he loves kids. He lights up when he sees our nephews or friends' kids, or even a cute baby at the store. I know having another one of his own would really make him shine with pride.

He hasn't putting pressure on me about it, and we're trying to stay grounded. But I must admit, I'm anxious to see what happens on the 30th, which is the day I can actually test to see if our first concentrated efforts worked. But as he said, "It could take a few months." At least one of us is firmly grounded in reality.